DIETS???

HELLO..
SO WHEN I ENTERED THE 9TH GRADE I WAS A SIZE 3!!! YES 3!!THEN WHEN I WAS IN 12TH GRADE I THINK I WAS A 5/6....OK...
WELL I MOVED TO KENTUCKY WHEN I WAS 20 AND I THINK I WAS A 9 BY THEN....
WHY DID I NOT START WORKING OUT???
OR AT LEAST TRY TO WATCH MY WEIGHT??
WELL I WENT TO WORK WITH MY HUSBAND THE OTHER DAY AND I WEIGHTED MYSELF...WHAT! I WANTED TO CRY..I DONT THINK I LOOK WHAT I WAY BUT COME ON!!!
IM TERRIFIED TO HAVE A CHILD..BECAUSE I KNOW MY 1ST PREGNANCY I WILL PROBABLY GAIN AT LEAST 40 LBS...THERE IS NO WAY!!!
I MIND SHARING WHAT SIZE I AM NOW..A 12 SOMETIMES A 14....BUT I STILL WEIGHT ALOT!!! SO I NEED DO GO ON A DIET...I NEED TO LOSE AT LEAST 40 LBS...SO I CAN HAVE A BABY IN THE NEXT COUPLE OF YEARS...
I CANT JOIN A DEIT PLAN ...ITS TOO PRICEY..
SO IM ON MY OWN..I HAVE A FEW WORK OUT VIDEOS AND WEIGHTS...SO WISH ME LUCK!
AN SMOKING IS STILL ON..IM NOT DOING THE GREATEST...NEED TO STRAITEN UP...AND GET HEALTHY!!!